[There was no particular resistance when Rumlow's arm curled with his, and he looked at his commander immediately at the hand on his face. He was designed to be the best weapon that HYDRA had, and if he wasn't meeting expectations - even unreasonable ones or those that went against his programming - it still felt as if it were a failure. That was unacceptable, so he struggled to overcome and to do what he had been designed to do: serve.]
A jump start. [He tried not to sound dubious at the prospect, not when there were plain shows in Hell of all that demons were willing to have done to them. Lust was plain in some. It was clear that Rumlow lusted for him as well as Chase, but in his current state, he was unable to meet expectations.] It's simply that being here goes against so much of what feels right inside. I know what I must do and when I do it well, everything is smooth sailing. When I go against what I've been trained to accept not having... it's uncomfortable.
[He had no idea what he was doing or saying in some regards. Voicing his internal workings was difficult when it was subjective like this.]
I don't want you to feel like this path is a wasted effort for you. I will be your Asset in whatever capacity you need.
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A jump start. [He tried not to sound dubious at the prospect, not when there were plain shows in Hell of all that demons were willing to have done to them. Lust was plain in some. It was clear that Rumlow lusted for him as well as Chase, but in his current state, he was unable to meet expectations.] It's simply that being here goes against so much of what feels right inside. I know what I must do and when I do it well, everything is smooth sailing. When I go against what I've been trained to accept not having... it's uncomfortable.
[He had no idea what he was doing or saying in some regards. Voicing his internal workings was difficult when it was subjective like this.]
I don't want you to feel like this path is a wasted effort for you. I will be your Asset in whatever capacity you need.