Bucky, I have never lied to you. Not once. The plans are still there. Just because I don't have HYDRA doesn't mean I don't have ambition. I want to do better than HYDRA.
[Bucky didn't know how much they had failed, Rumlow thought. Didn't know how badly Romanova had damaged things. How Pierce was dead, along with them. How Rogers had triumphed, even if he too died, later down the line.
Rumlow shook his head, hesitant to reach for Bucky, trying not to let the fear that was attempting to consume him win. He swallowed hard, gathering up his resolve. HYDRA didn't own him here. They never would. Never again. He didn't need to let them punish him for what he had done.]
I can't do that without you.
[He said it without even thinking. It just sort of. Came out. A thought, bursting out into word without going through any of the red tape. And it was true. Objectively, he probably would be able to, but Rumlow, for all that he tried, wasn't ever fully objective. He was too involved now. Too twisted up and engaged. Too attached. He didn't want to do it without Bucky, and so he simply couldn't.]
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[Bucky didn't know how much they had failed, Rumlow thought. Didn't know how badly Romanova had damaged things. How Pierce was dead, along with them. How Rogers had triumphed, even if he too died, later down the line.
Rumlow shook his head, hesitant to reach for Bucky, trying not to let the fear that was attempting to consume him win. He swallowed hard, gathering up his resolve. HYDRA didn't own him here. They never would. Never again. He didn't need to let them punish him for what he had done.]
I can't do that without you.
[He said it without even thinking. It just sort of. Came out. A thought, bursting out into word without going through any of the red tape. And it was true. Objectively, he probably would be able to, but Rumlow, for all that he tried, wasn't ever fully objective. He was too involved now. Too twisted up and engaged. Too attached. He didn't want to do it without Bucky, and so he simply couldn't.]