[The wheels were turning in Bucky's head, Rumlow knew. Remembered how it felt, his whole world crumbling beneath him. It hadn't been the first time, and Rumlow doubted it would be the last. He felt bad, he realized, seeing Bucky like this. Didn't like pulling the rug out from under him, but it was better now than later, when things got more serious.
He waited, trying not to let dread get under his skin. Bucky cared about him, Rumlow was sure, but -- was it enough to override programming? The Winter Soldier's loyalty to HYDRA was paramount, and yet with how long they had been together, Rumlow hoped he'd broken down just enough that this wouldn't somehow mark the end.
Rumlow would have to choose his words carefully, if he wanted to make this work.]
To be honest? Felt like the other way around. Like I was abandoned. Alone.
[He had filled the void with what he could, refused to dwell on any emotions that threatened to escape. Compartmentalized the loss and dealt with it in the only way he knew how. Building back up.]
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He waited, trying not to let dread get under his skin. Bucky cared about him, Rumlow was sure, but -- was it enough to override programming? The Winter Soldier's loyalty to HYDRA was paramount, and yet with how long they had been together, Rumlow hoped he'd broken down just enough that this wouldn't somehow mark the end.
Rumlow would have to choose his words carefully, if he wanted to make this work.]
To be honest? Felt like the other way around. Like I was abandoned. Alone.
[He had filled the void with what he could, refused to dwell on any emotions that threatened to escape. Compartmentalized the loss and dealt with it in the only way he knew how. Building back up.]
And then there was you.