[A part of him, small and used to HYDRA protocol, waited for the reprimand and the thought that he would need some kind of alterations in order to continue to be useful. The larger aspect of him that had dealt with Rumlow solely for the last two months accepted that his handler would not take him to task over events that were beyond his control. For all that they had been through here, Rumlow had never physically taken him to task or created new means to keep control of him, though he was certain that Hell had all manner of ways to do so.]

Edward. Steve. Ash. Sometimes Chase. [He shuffled his shoulders and bunkered down on top of Rumlow again, though half of his weight was his hips and legs which were between Rumlow's. At least there was a reasonable explanation to why he was experiencing these states of disruption.]

I won't be as effective if I remember. Isn't that why HYDRA keeps me as a blank slate? Memories will take away my focus and allow for distraction?